Hold on; be strong
Here comes the wind, baby
Rock-a-bye sings, lazy
Winter days
Lazy winter days
Take a scarf I said
Tying mine into an intricate knot
Hoping you wouldn't notice
As I laced it
In the same pattern as our fingers
Your scent lingers on
Even after you've gone
Running down the road
Seventy miles per hour,
And hours later
I still can't believe you're gone
You took hold of me
Like a fist,
You tied me like a windsor knot
Holding me close,
But spreading me to hide
Some unseen, unknown imperfection
An infection of the heart
Hidden behind polite smiles
All the while you cried
Because of some cold wind
S
So I wet my lips,
And dipped them in sugar
She licked them clean,
And gave me another
Book to read
She licked her lips,
And sang to me
A bittersweet
Melody,
And in those notes
I was freed
Sometimes people change
Get bored and rearrange
What made them love
Who gave them love
And they make love to themselves
Putting everyone through hell
You can't change it
So why blame them for it?
Just candy coat those lips
Trace me with your finger tips
Let me hold you
Oh, let me hold you
Late night wishes
They kiss the sky,
And give us just enough
To get by
Maybe someday
i loved a girl.
i loved a girl with a love
for cummings & sandburg
& sexton.
i loved an unflinching
poet of a girl.
& with no better diction:
they called the shaking fists
at her sides, her silent act
of pacifism, cowardice.
i’m the coward;
she bled for the both of us.
Therapists, I don't like their taste. by DearPoetry, literature
Literature
Therapists, I don't like their taste.
i.
in 7th grade
i didn’t know depression
until she told me her name,
carving forever scratches
along my limbs like
little love notes on the bark
of a tree.
she stole my rings
and left me hollow.
ii.
i had only ever met anxiety
in passing, until one day
he handed me power and told me
to hurt someone else with it.
iii.
inexperienced,
with an uncontrollable
quivering in my fingers,
he whispered, “ to survive,
you must learn quickly.”
as i shoved the bevel of a needle
into a strangers arm.
iv.
so, if a therapist
could talk away my scars
like iodine disinfects,
guide the ships
through
When you both started that conversation,
The one that would end 2 years of your life,
You couldn't have known what was coming;
But you took it like a pro. Bye bye, wife.
Slow, rational, mourning followed by action,
You stood strong and fearless to show your integrity.
What you couldn't see on the other side of that phone,
Her eyes shone a red, white, and blue so pretty;
And she was looking anywhere but at you boy.
She quit you like school, never going back.
Can't you let her go; chop chop her out?
Of course not, your eyes sparkled like that diamond.
Even though history fills you with doubt,
Suffer righteously, leave her alone, a
I was told
to slice through the thickest
of scar tissue this evening.
Let all my inner demons
fall to the floor
& write them out
in my own black blood.
It’s not red anymore,
even though needles
& the bruises
laid out like war-lands
on my arms
say otherwise.
I don’t think it ever was,
honestly.
Therapeutic,
they said.
My mind is a mess
of free versed insecurities,
cat’s eye marbles,
& untamed forest fires-
but,
I still don’t have the nerve
to slice open my skin
& bleed for her.
Murmured Memoir
First,
birth.
Best? Worst? More
thirst – more turns
heart-burn for momma.
Grew through patches,
toddled, waddled, dry
water hot as hasty hate
evaporate up into years
cry ladled tears.
Steer million troubles, treble,
tremble, extend hurts,
treat creaks, croaking groans,
fired bones. Tongue lash
in hot streaks. Reject the
ejected soul through throat
squeezes, crushing. Crushing
lust plays the lame shame game
and same defiled eyes cry alone
and no stone stays longer
than the dark room of my body
and the storm, too scared of breath.
I’ve got 30 days
to defy Icarus:
teach this rose thorn heart
how to fly.
[ All I want to be
is the space between
the stars.
]
But, I’m here,
ripping holes in blank pages
while nursing nebulae knuckles
with white plastered walls.